Still turnstiles framed by a window the red alders of Willapa Bay
[ Then, a red squirrel,
my notation of it
as if it were an upheaval
in daily drifting— ]
the limbs dangled their catkins as I upswung to them from within
[ A history
of a wet afterbirth
and held in the arms of my mother ovate
my notation of it formative for me— ]
The signal from branches in bright green coats, loud in the vivified hollow of the swale in a site
of gladness (as this gaze would have had it) morning becoming excessively noon
the gladness
as I waded through it bathing in forest shinrin-yoku
in Arashiyama
with her in twenty-first century style
and in other such claims of the bourgeois traveler
[ Why will I not name her why will I not speak to her? I want to spare her no
I want to feel I spared her this historicity
and if I explain the gladness I will harvest it
the new sustainability— ]
also the throngs of phones in front of tourist faces
[ Sudden emergency warble in the alder— ]
[ Then, a robin panned
into the plane of glass
(my relentless notation of it)
flailed off and submerged into the alder
saplings— ]
[ Then I shocked to a finchsong— ]
And I was back to Blake (safe ground) from a near-linnet’s
song ripped from itself into this alien, human, distanced,
tribal ritual, to convey it or to channel it vatic
The composer near me said there were three forms of listening: the sensuous plane, the expressive plane, and the sheerly
musical plane, but we preferred it scaled into the diatonic
with no chromatic alterations
so that much was missed
Blake said I’ll drink of the clear stream—he would not sing—
and this was the grief: the fish of the sighers’ stream were fish
caught within a thimble-sized drinking glass
dumb fancies
Or was it the decomposing fish of Agassiz, finally described?
[ Then a green humming bird floated before me
my notation of it— ]
[ What is this false history? what I
is this false history?— ]
My alder leaves are serrated and here comes meta phor
my use of the window as a frame
my subjectivity
spored into the air between our limbs
lodging into evergreen porousness
swelling through the rains into a soft blanketing moss-future
We want time to have happened before we did
but not after we did
the forest was here for us to arrive within
[we paid our admission
we paid to feed the deer ]
The red alders on the edge of the continent will hear
the shallow breath outside the mouth of the creation
without us, a bombast torn into the plane of silence
as the shelf slips at last into eustatic Pacific
we distance ourselves from our bodies
these storehouses of bloodless meat erected on feet
and whatever is made made of alder is alder
Yes now unlatch
the lock
from this gland
morning’s sap
into an instant
amber
thought leaked
onto the lichen
bole
hatched through
the window
Copyright © 2018 Richard Greenfield. Used with permission of the author.
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